So I’m 14 and want a life sized sex doll [on hold]

I’m currently 14 and want a sex doll. I already have a flashlight and a silicone ass that I bought at the mall but after a while that got boring. If I had a life size sex doll that would be AWSOME! There is just no way I can get one so can somebody please give me some suggestions on how to obtain one? I don’t want to ask my mom because that’s super awkward and it’s like $1000. I already have about $500 saved up towards this but idk how I’m going to get it once I have enough. Someone please help me!